Man. The past year has be a struggle to keep #balanced. I have been focusing on making my life better with no blue print just a journal filled with ideas. I've bounced from different living situations to endless job hunting; essentially trying to gain stability in a chaotic battle. An of course when the clouds begin to part and salvation seems possible at the end this ruthless typhoon, the flood comes. I was betrayed by my (ex)roommate. Money was taken from my room; money that was suppose set me up for the new chapter of my life. (entitled 'Charllie's #Independent Days') I was completely caught of guard by the situation. Frankly, I'll never get over this. That money was for my own apartment. How can someone you've lived with and known for years do something so childish, so evil? I felt like all my things were unsafe, i felt like that house was no longer my home. I just wanted out. Within less that a couple of days my bags were packed a U-Haul was rented and I was gone.
Now I'm back at my parents house. It's been almost a year and a half since I've moved out (from my parents).. But it's still the same. The same as it ever was. I feel like I've taken a step back in #progression. I do appreciate my parents taking me back in without much hesitation, I'm even more thankful that they aren't charging me anything for living with them. But after being 'grown up' moving back into the house where I had my first kiss I feel like i'm just a kid again. I'm not. But I cant help but feel like it. Where do I go from here? Where is my story going to take me? Do to uncontrollable circumstance I had to switch the chapters title. Now the running title is, Charllie's Restart.
I moved out of my parents house on a limb . I didn't plan it, I just packed my bags and dipped. Which is how a lot of kids move out. I think I would of benefited from taking a look at what options were available instead of just leaping. With that said, i'm in the position to fix some of the mistakes ($$$) made when I was out in the world and jump back out there when I'm ready. My coworker said it "Sometimes you have to take a step back, so you can see where to step #forward." 6 months from today, I should be back on track but for now i'm going to enjoy my momma's home cooked and free rent. ^__^
It's been almost 3 years since the last time i've posted. As you can imagine a lot has happened in those years. I don't want to say that i've grown up, but I'e gained some experience in life that has changed my perspective. I moved out of my parents house, moved to los angeles, moved back to vegas.... and now i'm back at my moms house. Tons of triumphs, betrayls, laughter, sex and pot. Lets just say my story keeps getting better and it's time I share it with you. ^_^
my grades this quarter were what i expected them to be. these last three months have been quite the adventure. and the next 3 months are sure to be intense too. Hopefully this whirlwind i'm going through will land me in a better spot that i am right now.
I have no choice but to run with my actions. "grungy boy" knows i like him.. i guess time will tell if a relationship flourishes. i'm not like those other gay guys who are all about fucking. dont get me wrong i'm horny all the time. but i cant get myself to just fuck a guy then on to the next one. I'd rather 'smush' with someone i care for.
anywho, hopwfully i don't get all shy and embarrased when i see him at work today. it shall be interesting... maybe i should ask him on a date? hmm.